Between nursing, burping, rocking, consoling, and rocking some more - I have had a lot of time to think - to ponder, reflect, troubleshoot, whatever you want to call it. So many things have happened in the last two months, it's kind of hard to grasp. And it's good things, welcome things, answers to prayers, resolution. At the same time, it has been a whirlwind of craziness that I am still trying to wrap my head around (hence the pondering). Which brings me to ask, is it possible to be overwhelmed by blessings? So I decided in the next few posts that I am going to write about all the wonderful things that have been going on in our life. I want my family to know we are truly blessed.
A New Job (finally!)
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About two weeks after I found out that I was pregnant (surprise!) with Luke, Tracy called me while I was at work. He knew I was already starting to feel the dreaded "morning" sickness and was really stressed out (which wasn't anything new - being a working mom about did me in, let me tell ya - a whole new respect for you working moms out there!).
Now, at this point, we hadn't even discussed my working situation and the pregnancy. So what he said when I answered the phone sent me reeling for a bit. He told me he felt strongly that I needed to put in my two week notice. My reaction? I was speechless (hard to imagine, I know). So many thoughts were going through my head, the first and foremost was Well that's not a smart move, how are we going to buy food?... Being at work, I felt like it wasn't the place for me to discuss it with my hubby, over the phone, where everyone can eavesdrop and know my business. But he was persistent (and I really shouldn't be surprised about that one either).
I gave in and asked him if he had a job lined up so I could quit. He told me that he did not, but he promised he would and that everything would work out. I have to admit, I was NOT on the same page. My thoughts went something like this: Work out?!? WORK OUT! Really?!? 'Cause things are working out sooooo well right now. First we move to Boise, now I am working full-time so you can study and be Mr. Mom, we are living in an apartment with 3 kids AND a dog and WE. ARE. BARELY. SCRAPING. BY....Really?!? Now how is that considered "working out" so far?!?
Obviously, I did not feel the same (oh me of little faith) and I told him so, as polite as I could (hmmm - maybe that is why he called me at work so I had to speak nicely). I told him I wasn't sure if that was the right thing to do, you know, a back up plan is nice - you don't quit a job unless you have another one lined up (especially in this economy). He told me to just think about it. As soon as I hung up the phone, a quiet sense of relief came over me. It was the "finally, I can quit, I've done my part so now I can stay at home with the kids...no more guilt...no more getting pulled in one too many directions" kind of relief. That feeling was enough for me. I marched straight over to the boss and put my two weeks notice in. (Now after I told the boss, a sense of panic immediately set in...but it WILL work out, right? I did have to remind myself of that...several times, I might add.)
Sure enough, Tracy did some research and found out that he could do TDY's through the Air National Guard, and a TDY just opened up at Mountain Home. He called, it hadn't been filled yet, and they said he could take it. His orders were cut for a 60 day TDY - which meant it was a temporary fix, but at least we would have income coming in. After 60 days, we'd have to figure something out, however this bought us some time. Long story short, the 60 days TDY turned into 7 months and an opportunity to apply for the same position on the civilian side. He applied for it, and out of 70 applicants, 2 interviews and some fierce competition - they offered him the job. He accepted it, just before Luke was born. He started in March.
Had we not followed our hearts to move to Boise, and had I not gotten pregnant, Tracy would not have been looking for a public affairs job. Had he not taken the TDY, he would not have had the knowledge to apply for the civilian job. So 20 months (since he lost his job in CO) later, we were led to a job that would allow me to stay home with the kids and allow us to put some roots down, which is the whole reason why we got out of the military in the first place. One big circle, so to speak.
This blessing was a long time in the making and it came at just when we needed it. The Lord knew there were some lessons that we (especially me) needed to learn. Lessons of humility, faith, patience, endurance, hope, heartache, hard work, and sacrifice. Truth be told, it was tough. Really tough. But I wouldn't have it any other way. And the added bonus? A beautiful baby boy :)
Come to think of it, I should clarify what I mean by "overwhelmed". I don't mean it's too much, or too hard. I mean I am mystified as to how everything has worked out, for the best, at just the right time - so mystified that I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I am grateful.